I see the new RE in under a week and I am terrified! A part of me is afraid that he will be convinced that we shouldn't try further. Irrational I know, but the fear is there.
I think that it equates to the same fear that I have of the IVF. If we don't do IVF we can at least have hope, and a someday procedure. If we do go through with the IVF and it fails, then that hope is gone, that someday is removed from the equation. I think I could live without children for the rest of my life as long as that hope was there, the possibility. I wouldn't want to, and I wouldn't like it, but I could do it. To live without children and without the hope seems so very insurmountable. The hope of fertility treatments has been the only things to hold me up through the last few years, I don't know what I would do without it.