Tuesday, September 7, 2010

So.....I saw my drug dealer today...

.....err, I mean I saw my fertility specialist today. As of today we are officially undergoing fertility treatments. So far its relatively painless. I take a few pills on a complicated schedule of progesterone here, clomid there and a little metformin thrown in in for good measure. Tomorrow I go in for a fasting blood draw and a glucose test (which I am already dreading!). Wish us luck!

I agonized over whether or not to reveal our treatments and what we are going through but a few things made me decide to blog about it. First, Dr. Get me Pregnant urged me to find a way to vent and connect with other people in the same situation and I'll admit I have been known to search out blogs about infertility. Secondly, DR. Get me Pregnant encouraged me to be open with friends ad family so that when I am in a hormone induced rage over who didn't put the cups on the table exactly three inches above the plate, they would forgive me. Lastly, I wanted, no, needed a place where I could vent, cry, rage and express my fears. Sometimes I tend to overwhelm Mark with the strength of my emotions, so having a place to work through them will be good for me.

So here is the breakdown of the good, the bad and the ugly of fertility treatments.
*the cost of fertility treatments has been surprisingly low so far. The prescriptions were only $70 or so and the appointment was about the same. This was even without insurance. Mark and I still have labs to do however.
*Dr. Get me Pregnant and his wife struggled with infertility for several years so he understands where I am coming from
*So far I have taken my first dose of progesterone and metformin and no hormone induced rages have occurred.
*I'm terrified of not getting pregnant
*I'm terrified of getting pregnant
*I have school to distract me

9 comments:

Heather said...

What a journey you and your Hubby are on right now. Will be praying for peace, support from loved ones and a positive outcome!

Keya said...

OMG you posted my first ever blog comment! haha i am thrilled beyond words :) What a lovely big family you have. I understand the financial aspect because of having been in school for so long. I wish you all the very best with your IF treatments. thanks for stopping by :)

Stefanie Wolfaardt said...

I hope everything goes well with the IF treatment, and I hope your journey will be a short and positive one

Amber said...

Wishing you all sort of positive thoughts towards your IF journey. I totally understand you fear of not getting pregnant combined with a fear of getting pregnant. I worry that I won't become a mom, but also worry that I won't be a good mom!

And props to you for deciding to blog about IF. There are so many great people to connect with who are going through the same thing.

Anonymous said...

I hope your journey ends with the reward you're after. I agree - sharing via the blog or with family & friends is such a huge weight off your shoulders. The girls in the T-TTC & IF community offer such great support and advice!

ICLW #115
http://lovelyladybump.blogspot.com/

Suzy said...

I think haveing a Dr that has personal experience is a real asset in this process. I hope it all goes smoothly for you :)

Sarah said...

welcome to the IF blogging community, I have found it to be a great support!!!

In my real life I have only decided to tell a select few people what we are going through, I didn't want to answer the questions and i know people would be well meaning, but would get into my hair.

Good Luck with your journey, I hope it is a short one!!

Mrs. Unexpected said...

I hope the fertility treatments do the trick for you! I am just starting my first cycle on meds, too, and it is a scary place to be. Good luck!

Heather said...

Stopping by from ICLW. Sounds like you are off to the races. Fingers crossed that this one works for you.

Best wishes.