The Internet and my resolutions

I just want to say that the internet is a wonderful place, that can provide wonderful things! A co-forumite of the Dollar stretcher, responded to my post about babies and infertility, and it was an amazingly uplifting moment for me. So I have decided that I am going to do what I can do to get what I want.
In 3 months I will once again have medical coverage, so I am going to use it. However, I want to get the most possible out of it in order to increase the chances of it being successful. To do that my goals are:

1. Save money! This has a two fold purpose.... to help pay for any medical assistance that might be nessacary and to help with me second goal...
2. Losing weight. How does saving money help with losing weight? It reduces eating out and encourages eating in season. My weight is such a touchy subject. I have always been on the heavy side, just like all the women in my family. The first time we began to delve into the fertility treatment world my weight was almost 40 lbs. lighter than it is now, and I was being told to lose weight. Ironically, that just compounded my weight issues and I gained instead of lost. I think I will have a much better chance this time because honestly, I don't care iof I lose weight. I care that I get healthier.
3. I am going to work on being okay with myself. I don't want to go into fertility treatments hating myself, or feeling guilty and inferior. I am going to be proud of who I am, how I am no matter what that ends up being.

I guess I am a little terrified about all of this because of our last experiance. The way they handled my issues seemed so unimportant, when it was the most important thing to me. The only suggestions they had were to go on birth control for a year, and when i was still not having regular menstral cycles, the solution was clomid. True, Mark and I decided to not follow through on more than two cycles because we were in the middle of buying a house, but at that point it seemed so pointless. Maybe we just gave up so too soon. I think this type I am going to seek out a reproductive specialist from the very beginning.